wedding
yes...wedding (i'm not doing a mistake to write a word "WEDDING")
wedding is something that every girl dream of in their life when they reach the age for marriage.
i have been single for past 8 years ago. hahaha just go ahead to laugh. but that the truth of my status in past 8 years ago haha
i am now 25 years old and just found someone (a man...of course not a guy) hehe
he come to my life just like a storm. why i said like a storm, because when storm come everything is mess up. all the things turn into a mess. somehow its come in the unexpected way. yup...that just like him (my future husband)
at that time, i was simple girl who want to make a every effort that i could to pursue my goal in life "being a career woman". yup, career, career and career is the only matter in my life. for achieve my drream i did all my best to finished my study in college in time, even faster. and i did my best to get a good grade in my study so i got a predicate "Cumlaude". thanks to my hard work.
with good academic grade, it will make me have a easier way to got a good job. many company will gave me a opportunity or chance to put my best skill in work in those company. that was mt believe at that time. but, the reality is not as good as you dream of. Now, i am still wait patiently of my right time to come and bring the job that i am always wish it for all this time. Fighting (cheering my self haha)
after graduated, all the things above fulling my mind. i was used to be focus on that "career, career and career". one single different thing except career, never cross in my mind, for example is the thing called LOVE. yes, i just put aside those word called love in life. focusing in my search of a good job, a job that i would killed to have (with high salary of course hahaha).
seeing my life turn into some kind a robotic way, maybe GOD felt sad or pity on me. and walaaa, until now, in this time, this minutes, even this sec, all my hard work to get a job is bear fruit yet hahaha. this a GOD plan maybe, i believe hahaha
so, i pray to GOD again, i said "GOD, if You are not willing give a job in this time, please give or send someone nice to me, someone that will take away my loneliness". actually, i just prayed like that to GOD, did not meant seriously with the content hahaha. but, miraculously its answered by GOD. wow...i just...lost my word when i recalled that moment haha.
back again, its was a GOD plan for sure. i believe, GOD gave me, what i needed not what i wanted. so, he (future husband) came to my life.
how can i meet my future husband. maybe you all guys wondered how...
first, i wanna tell you a one single word, that describe all the thing "Matchmaking"
hahaha..hahaha...yes, the correct word ever!
his parent and my parent was already know each other, because they are a relative from my grandfather line.
one day his parent come to my house to ask my parent, is it right if their son wanna ask your daughter out. simply put, only to know each other well. if they have a klik (attractive feeling) thing it would be good sign.
that time, i just did not know what is exactly my parent think. they (my parent) say OKEY to the offer. it was DOOM for me!
i was against it (the matchmaking plan). on my mind, i want to focus to my master degree program and search an opportunity of job vacancy in meantime. i will find my significant other when i already fulfill my goal (get a job). i tried my best told my reason to my parent why i against it but they won't listen. that was the second hardest moment in my life after job problem.
felt like no one in my side, helped me or supported me. i was all alone to face that.
in no time, he just came over to my dormitory in yog******, along with his mother and lilt brother. shocked and didn't know what to do, i just simply accepted his visit. that was the first time i saw exactly who he was, person in person, eye to eye and whatever..."DON'T LIKE HIM" crossed in my mind and i had to decline this stupid matchmaking plan ever!
Saturday, November 8, 2014
For 2 Years
i'm feel very sorry for my blog huhu
its such a long time i neglected my this blog. first time i posted in 2012, and its already 2014.
for 2 years i didn't post anything.
i'm sorry...very big sorry
and for make up my bad attitude for you (talking with my blog) i'll tell you some story that happened for 2 years.
first is about my journey, all experiences i had, up and down situation i already had when being a jobseeker. actually, until this time i still be a joobseeker
for 2 years, i tried my best to looking for a job that i thought it was suitable for me, i thought i deserve it, or i thought have the capability to do it. but, how many time i tried to not give up, my effort to seek a job still not have a good result. hahaha
thought those feeling being rejected was painful enough but, i tried my best to not let my hope gone. the one thing i try to hold tight is faith. my faith in God, is the only hope had in past 2 years.
some friends of mine said to me , my effort to get a job is enough. enough to try hard, enough to do the best i can, enough to hold the grudge feeling inside my heart. so, simply put is the differences between insane and not insane is very slim. hahaha
sometime i'm wondering, is my faith not enough? or am i not good enough? or am i not pull out my best try? or something like that. the matter is i'm just feel like a hopeless girl.
honestly, i lost my confident, i felt, me just not me. i'm afraid to make a plan of my life. afraid to have a dream, afraid to have goal of my life. feeling like a ordinary people, do the same thing everyday, every single day, i always ask my self "when is my time come?" or "when i finally find my job?" those lines repeating in mind over and over again. somehow, its driving me crazy.
but, that the reality i have to face. i have to face it bravely. not running away from that or even feeling a shame because of it. acceptance is the way i can deal those unfair feeling.
like i said before, now my faith in God is the only strength i had to face bravely all of it. sounds pretty sad, isn't it? but, yes, i admit it.
if i can say out loud, i just wanna say "GOD, give me your strength to wait with all of my patience your right time for me to finally get a good job" AMIIIEEENN (-,-) as a human, all i can do is pray and put my faith in your Hand GOD. i TRUST you GOD, BELIEVE in you GOD amien
sorry again, if my second posting is like this. but, THANKYOU
its such a long time i neglected my this blog. first time i posted in 2012, and its already 2014.
for 2 years i didn't post anything.
i'm sorry...very big sorry
and for make up my bad attitude for you (talking with my blog) i'll tell you some story that happened for 2 years.
first is about my journey, all experiences i had, up and down situation i already had when being a jobseeker. actually, until this time i still be a joobseeker
for 2 years, i tried my best to looking for a job that i thought it was suitable for me, i thought i deserve it, or i thought have the capability to do it. but, how many time i tried to not give up, my effort to seek a job still not have a good result. hahaha
thought those feeling being rejected was painful enough but, i tried my best to not let my hope gone. the one thing i try to hold tight is faith. my faith in God, is the only hope had in past 2 years.
some friends of mine said to me , my effort to get a job is enough. enough to try hard, enough to do the best i can, enough to hold the grudge feeling inside my heart. so, simply put is the differences between insane and not insane is very slim. hahaha
sometime i'm wondering, is my faith not enough? or am i not good enough? or am i not pull out my best try? or something like that. the matter is i'm just feel like a hopeless girl.
honestly, i lost my confident, i felt, me just not me. i'm afraid to make a plan of my life. afraid to have a dream, afraid to have goal of my life. feeling like a ordinary people, do the same thing everyday, every single day, i always ask my self "when is my time come?" or "when i finally find my job?" those lines repeating in mind over and over again. somehow, its driving me crazy.
but, that the reality i have to face. i have to face it bravely. not running away from that or even feeling a shame because of it. acceptance is the way i can deal those unfair feeling.
like i said before, now my faith in God is the only strength i had to face bravely all of it. sounds pretty sad, isn't it? but, yes, i admit it.
if i can say out loud, i just wanna say "GOD, give me your strength to wait with all of my patience your right time for me to finally get a good job" AMIIIEEENN (-,-) as a human, all i can do is pray and put my faith in your Hand GOD. i TRUST you GOD, BELIEVE in you GOD amien
sorry again, if my second posting is like this. but, THANKYOU
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